so my presentation is in 2 hours. and did i slack off for its preparation or what? i think this is the most unprepared presentation i have ever given. I'll be up there for an hour and man i predict disaster.
The funny thing is i was just thinking two days ago how i couldn't remmeber the last time i was sick and how awesome and in tune my immune system is...and today i am sick. I have no doubt in my mind that this sickness is teh direct result of the stress (increased glutocorticoids) of this presentation. I was so bitter yesterday. just pure bitterness. the library was up the hill, and it was cold, and my zipper was broken. I just a bundle of hate yesterday.
and today, well i am done worrying about the presentation. I just don't feel like doing it for a whole hour. my bed feels too good. I woke up early to read but after a couple of hours i went back to bed. And my morning has been silent and a back and forth between dreaming and fantasies of the most subtle nature. I also enjoyed staring out of my window. It was snowing.
I just can't wait for time to go 4 hours ahead. i'll clean my appartment again and wash some dishes and revisit my daint corner in the living room under the lamp and my earrings. It's wierd huh? 4 hours, is just nothing, but there is nothing I can do at this point in time. i am absoluetely helpless.
